;

;

a semi colon. a pause. an interlude. a breath.
bated breath.
i wish you could still take a breath.
i wish you had taken a breath.

i wasn’t there when you were longing to live. i wasn’t there when you were longing to die.
i wasn’t there when you opted to go. or wanted to cry. i was only there to say goodbye.

goodbye.

i don’t understand, but then neither did you. i can only guess that when you became unglued that you forgot why
why it was better to stay, and god i pray, that whatever last thing you heard yourself say was goodbye.

because we’re saying goodbye.

i do wonder and will wonder what those final moments meant to you before darkness clouded you and you left us for good
and how i wish it would give us something – it should – some idea, some answers, i’m sure it could

so we’d understand saying goodbye.

i am looking for answers. but then, so were you. weren’t you. you were looking for reasons. reasons to stay.
i don’t know what to say, if i only i may, just for a day, give back to you the hope you needed to keep from being afraid

we’re afraid to say goodbye.

goodbye is final.

;

a semi colon. a pause. an interlude. a breath.
bated breath.
i wish you could still take a breath.
i wish you had taken a breath.

2 Comments Add yours

  1. brendaratcliffe says:

    Omg Care it’s 8am and you having me bawling my eyes out. The is blog really hit home for me death is so final those final goodbyes hurt the heart for a very long time adore you ❤️🌹

  2. brendaratcliffe says:

    Oh my another awesome blog !! You made me cry reading this so many people close to my heart I have had to say goodbye and your so right death is so final makes us wish one more day one more kiss one more I love you ty Care ❤️🌹

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