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a semi colon. a pause. an interlude. a breath.
bated breath.
i wish you could still take a breath.
i wish you had taken a breath.

i wasn’t there when you were longing to live. i wasn’t there when you were longing to die.
i wasn’t there when you opted to go. or wanted to cry. i was only there to say goodbye.

goodbye.

i don’t understand, but then neither did you. i can only guess that when you became unglued that you forgot why
why it was better to stay, and god i pray, that whatever last thing you heard yourself say was goodbye.

because we’re saying goodbye.

i do wonder and will wonder what those final moments meant to you before darkness clouded you and you left us for good
and how i wish it would give us something – it should – some idea, some answers, i’m sure it could

so we’d understand saying goodbye.

i am looking for answers. but then, so were you. weren’t you. you were looking for reasons. reasons to stay.
i don’t know what to say, if i only i may, just for a day, give back to you the hope you needed to keep from being afraid

we’re afraid to say goodbye.

goodbye is final.

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a semi colon. a pause. an interlude. a breath.
bated breath.
i wish you could still take a breath.
i wish you had taken a breath.